Today is my Tomorrow

I love the quote and photo here. If only "rest" and "quietness" were my go to words, but alas as I type these words I have the blaring of 3 (yes 3) different television sets going. Wrestling, Nick Jr and Disney Jr - music to my ears. Lol... I'm not going to allow the symphony of sets to discourage me though. Especially not when the Thursday Blog Hop from Melissa Taylor's online bible study sort of picks up from what I mentioned on Tuesday. Remember? My Word of the Day??

In joining up with the fellow Blog Hoppers, I decided to chat on the topic of "A Healthy Tomorrow". The question being:

3. Healthy Tomorrow. Chapter 3. What are some healthy choices you need to make for your life as you deal with stress? OR Share with us the healthy choices you already make!

If you asked me this question on Tuesday (yesterday even), I wouldn't have had an answer for you. Not in the midst of my every day. Matter-of-fact, I wouldn't have had an answer this morning. Lol... But I took the time to actually catch up on the bible study (***GASP*** I was 2 weeks behind) and one thing settled in my spirit. The ONE thing (because we have to start somewhere) that I can do - not tomorrow- but today is accept my limitations. And it actually stood out to me in this week's verse for the week. Isaiah 30:15... I think the Message version said it best for me:

"God, the Master, The Holy of Israel, has this solemn counsel: “Your salvation requires you to turn back to me and stop your silly efforts to save yourselves. Your strength will come from settling down in complete dependence on me— The very thing you’ve been unwilling to do."

I read this verse and it just stepped all on my toes. Somewhere along the way, I developed this belief that I'm the savor - this one woman show.  The strong idea that I have to have it all together. Believing that I have to do it all (cooking, cleaning, help with homework, carpool, work, make dead-lines, look good, drop the baby weight, help family & friends and all with a smile on my face, no attitude and no guilt for when I have to actually say no. Pushing through each day and worse yet to the point of now, just going through the motions. Somewhere losing sight of me.

So I have to make this choice today. Not tomorrow. I say "Tomorrow" way too much. "I'll start over tomorrow" - the magic mantra. Today is all I'm guaranteed. So it has to be a daily choice to lay down those burdens and put my dependence completely in Him. To just breathe and trust that the Lord has got my back. And just praying that maybe along the way I'll learn who I am through HIS eyes - not mine and definitely not this worlds.

Besides whoever created that lovely phrase "Super Mom" - yeah, they can keep it. I don't want the "S" on my chest or the cape on my back! No matter how sexy my husband may think it is. ;) I'm retiring... Well the cape is at least.